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Dear Chubby Buddy:
Last night I again ate bad things. I had some peanut butter cups, a cadbury egg and some peanuts. I also ate them after 8pm which I know is a big problem. I am trying not to be so hard on myself. I have been real good about cutting out fast food. Last night after class, I really wanted to go to Wendy’s and get a bacon burger, but I didn’t do it. I came home and ate some cream cheese on rye bread. So, with every gain I guess there is a loss.
I went to the gym today as well. I was there again for a full hour. I actually was able to run for a full five minutes without wanting to totally just stop on the treadmill and let my body propel backwards into a heap of mangled mess. It was odd because as I was running and doing the bike (that sounds wrong on some level, but you know what I mean) I felt my spare tire jiggling about like Santa seeing some cookies. Instead of getting upset and wanting to stop working out, it made me mad and I wanted to work out harder.
There was no smiley guy at the gym today.
So, tonight I have class again and I hope I can stay strong and avoid Wendy’s. I think I should look at this week as a trial period. I got my fat ass to the gym and I cut a lot of bad habits. Still some linger, but next week- no excuses.
Take care.
Inside the Mind of a Writer 
April 15, 2010 at 6:12 pm
I think that using this week as a trial period is good. It’s hard to change everything all that once so I guess it’s just more important to make progress little by little. I’m proud of you for going to the gym again!!!!!! Just remember that eating well does not mean that you have to deprive yourself of everything that you like. The key is moderation. Next week is game time. NO EXCUSES for either of us. We are going to kick ass 🙂
April 15, 2010 at 6:22 pm
April:
You are right. I didn’t eat the whole bag of peanut butter cups; I just ate two of them. I didn’t eat all four of the cadbury eggs; I just ate one of them. I think I am moving in the right direction and it’s true, Rome wasn’t built in a day and I can’t go cold turkey. Step by step and I think things will stick better.
You should come to Pilates with me next week!!!!